Some days ago I was taking son to an appointment.  We had to take a bus which is usually full and people at the line commonly push others aiming to get inside first.  I was aware of this and was worried they would push/pass over S.  Even though, I thought they would be ‘civilized’ and would respect son.

So the bus came, and effectively a woman pushed and ‘passed over’ us.  I got upset and with a ‘despicable’ look and a ‘despicable’ tone in my voice I told her “asshole!.  I’t amazing how you don’t even respect kids!”.

After a couple of minutes of feeling as a poor victim, I ‘woke up’ and realize how inconsistent I was acting.  I was feeling offended because the woman didn’t respect ‘my’ son and, in a supposedly ’wiser’ or ‘better’ act, I disrespected her.  I mean, what a nonsense!.  And what an example to son

Behind my act I was scared they would hurt him and my intention was to protect him.  But I made in my mind these expectations of “civilized people” which were not met, and that is what got me upset, the unmet expectations.  So, in common sense, if I don’t have expectations there are not reasons to be upset, right?.  And I don’t mean it is great to pass over the other people, but what could I get by insulting the woman?, could this be of any use? – I honestly can’t think of any use.

So, even in small things that could seem so ‘natural’ and logical to us, we pass on shit to kids; and worst of all we send to them the opposite message we intend!.  I wanted to ‘teach’ him that being disrespectful is ‘bad’/'wrong’ but I myself was being disrespectful :S – time to get real.